Because I don’t talk much about it, I am often asked “Hey, How are you? What have you been up to?”. My answer “I am fine. I am working on some things”.
If you were one of those guys hearing that answer from me, sorry, I lied. Then, I was weak to be honest. Truth is I wasn’t fine (some of you noticed). I wasn’t fine because I have not been up to anything. Even though I have been working on this lean venture with my friend for few months now but that has not taken a lot out of my time. All along I have been blaming the venture-not-working-out-yet to be the reason for my disappointment, instead I was feeling guilty. Guilty of procrastinating, guilty of waiting for something to happen, guilty of wasting it.
It has been 6 months now since I quit my job. And every now and then some genuinely concerned people remind me how unproductive I am. Add to that my disappointment of the time I have whiled away – a dangerous mixture it becomes.
It would have scared the hell out of me to write this if I wasn’t out of the vicious circle of feeling guilty. To hell with guilty. Whatever guilt was left I wrote it out, thus cleaning my soul.
I am feeling great right now like I have found some truth or something. And the realization that pulled me out of that well of guilt is this: Life is all about doing. Doing your work, your art, your adventure with all your heart and soul. That is all it has to it. What more?
I am more sure than ever that I will have more stories to share in the coming months. Thanks for hanging around
On another note I have committed myself to teaching yoga online. Small session of 15 minutes daily. Learn a new pose everyday. Interested? – you can sign up here or subscribe to the youtube channel.