Days are not always great.
It takes a lot to make something happen out here. And yet sometimes, results don’t see the light of the day.
Insecurity, fear, anxiety – I feel these.
But these are negligible. Negligible in return for what I am getting: Time and freedom.
Now what I do with them is in my control. That action I take is going to decide how I feel about myself today and how I am going to feel tomorrow.
In relation to the above let me take you to a comment I made in my previous post.
I said – “Given a chance now, probably, I wouldn’t have done it “. When my friend Ashwini read it, she was intrigued. Her curiosity led to a conversation with me. Sharing the same here.
(P.S: I’ve made few changes to the below chat as I see fit, however gist remains)
Ashwini: It was a nice post, but I have a question. You say “Given a chance now, probably, I wouldn’t have done it.” Why?
Anil: Courage, I think, is a function of time, emotions, environment and several other factors. So I guess I find myself less courageous now as compared to then Also note that I’ve used the word ‘probably’
Ashiwni: Hmm.. Do you somehow regret it?? Or it is just too less time to judge your decision?
I’m sorry to bother you with questions. But somehow you are one of the people who quit job to do something different, so I want to know the pros and cons of it
Anil: I’m enjoying my time and freedom. I don’t think I will ever regret the decision.
I wouldn’t promise it but I don’t see myself ever going back to a big salary job. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying its bad to one. It is just not my preference.
So if you ask – what does the regretting the decision depend on? I would say it depends on your priorities. Consider this: If my mother seeks a lot of medical attention and needs a lot of money for her expenses. Then I’d prefer having a regular source of income to support it. Hence I’d prefer a big salary job.
Ashwini: Those things apart, for your own sake you wont regret, right?
Anil: Me? I wouldn’t.
Before I could take the decision, it took me a lot of time to shape myself. I read books, blogs, experimented on myself, did meditation and yoga. Doing these shifted my paradigm. My belief system transformed to say – There is nothing more important in the world than being able to do things that you have always dreamed doing.
Some people say – Once you quit job, you must have something to do, else you’ll go mad. That is not entirely true. Because I don’t have a job, I don’t go to office and all my days are not productive, yet I find myself sane (at least that is what I think =))
I think, finally it boils down to this: What is your innermost belief? What is very important to you?
Ashwini: I think till the time you are happy, people who matter to you are happy, you can do whatever you want.. that contentedness is the most important. Of course without regrets.. money does matter, but when you are not happy, even money can’t buy happiness.
I’m trying really hard to strongly believe this and do whatever I want, but still not enough guts
Anil: We all are different. I would say hang in there. Do stuff in your free time and on weekends. Surround yourself with like-minded people. If u want it that bad, that guts will come.
More often than not, grass looks greener on the other side. It seems heavenly to quit your job. But I don’t care about that. All I care about is – If you can look yourself in the mirror and answer the question ‘Why do you want to do it?’; once you do that regretting the decision sort of questions become irrelevant.